我的不擅长

有什么事，我都习惯了自己懂，自己承担。
因为，习惯了一个人。
没有和任何人分享，也不会怎样去和任何人分享。
我不会表达，有时候就算说了好像也没用。
所以渐渐的，我就习惯把所有事收起来，只让自己知道。
怪我吧，我就是那么古怪。
怪我吧，如果你认为我自私。
我真的不懂可以做些什么。
其实我要的只是很简单的东西，为什么就是那么难？
我不可以奢望别人会了解我。
但也请不要随便乌黑我。
该做的，都做了。
该给的，都给了。
我还可以怎样？
要爱别人，先要爱自己。
我想好好爱自己。
就算全世界都要怪我，也无所谓了。
我没有那个能力让所有人站在我的立场想。
我也不惹人爱，惹人怜。
我也知道自己欠扁，没有人爱我，也无所谓了。
我会好好爱自己。
为自己好，有错么？
冷酷的外表下，藏着易碎的心，有谁懂。



#24. Letting go doesn't mean giving up,but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be.

When my day comes

A birthday present for myself.

Love Pooh, always. 

:)

More to come..

Be the ordinary

I will not let the sorrows conquer me any longer, I'm coming back soon. Give me more time. I'm trying hard. I will. Be strong again and confront every obstacles. Because if I don't care myself more nobody will be there to care for me. Life still goes on whereby this is not the first experience though. Get used to it. Never let go, never get to know how's life will be. Something elite is waiting for me, I truly believe this. Never forget the smile everyday.

Wouldn't hide under the blanket anymore.

:)

Love life

Project marathon

Look at my messy table and stuffs.

People Raya holidays but I'm having project holidays.

Gosh.

Project marathon 3 days in a row.

More days to go!

Need some outings for relaxation.

Serious shits.

Long time didn't act like so hardworking already eh?

I'm quite impress with my behaviour right now.

LOL

I'm finally not a lazy brat.

Work hard work hard.

Fighting!!

:)

My heart is numb,

can't even differentiate what's the happiness or unhappiness.

It's all unimportant to me anymore. 

Useless.

Like you.

說你愛我，不如不要爱我

爱你困住你也困住我自己

我那躲也躲不掉的微妙伤口

隐隐作痛

你那戒也戒不掉的甜蜜借口

也让我精神腐朽

说你爱我变成一种借口

不如趁早放手

说你爱我变成一种折磨

我承担不起你的承诺

......

一直告诉自己是最后一次

我真的错了

不听话

原来...

我想的东西都是对的...
反正我也不想再emo下去了，
期望也失望了；心也淡过了。
还有太多重要的事等着我去完成，
我想为未来而努力，打拼。
总之，同样的错我是不会再犯了
以后，你们没有福分再看到。

我知道，上天会一直眷顾我。
谢谢。
我也不必感到不公平，
因为实在有太多美好的事情发生在我身上。
为的，不为的，无所谓了。
你们高兴就好。

就算只剩下你，也足够。
有你，就很足够了。

我也很累了

原来我不曾拥有

就这样

Life

Life is tough.

Life isn't easy.

So we must stay stronger.

咬紧牙关.

没什么事过不了.

Cheer.

Can't wait to say bye to August 'cause it is sucks.

You'll never know

Do you believe in miracles?
Yes I do.
But I'm afraid to believe it at the same time.
Because when you expect too much, you'll get disappointments, you'll get yourself hurt, and then you will find yourself pathetic.
I'm a pessimistic person indeed.
But deep down inside my heart I always holding a hope for better things to come.
I'm just too afraid to trust it, and to lose something important.
Yet I'll keep on waiting for it to happen.
Someday, it will really happens once in our life time.
Believe this :)

My miracle is Him.♥ 

#24. When miracle is about to come, you'll never know.

Sorrow is not the only matter

I couldn't really describe my feelings right now, it seems alright but deep down inside my heart I know it is not. How frustrating. Couldn't fall asleep in the middle of the night. It is torturing. Doom August, doom. I really shouldn't have expect too much, too much. Something worse really did happened, oh I shouldn't said this at first. Now August is really kind of ROCK =.= Anyway, everything will be okay, everything will be fine. I've prayed, pray more. 

世事真的很无常！

前一天才想通，明白一些事。

好不容易心情好转，

第二天就有不好的事情打击我。

瞬间把我的mood拉到无底洞，

还好还没有盲。

幸好一切都过去了，

不然我也不懂会变成什么样，

真的不敢想象。

人没事就好，这是最重要的。

再这样下去也不是办法，

开朗的雪溧是时候回来了！！

不会那么容易被击败！

烦恼，麻烦，霉运，坏事通通滚远远！

Bye DOOM! Hate you! Give me a great August! 

Happiness is yet to come...I'm waiting...

:)

Couldn't  bear to lose someone so important like him.

88 ♥

I shall put away the somber and post something pleasant. It was our monthsary and we decided to do something different instead of watching movie and have lunch together as usual. So, dearie figured to bring me to KLCC as it had been a long time we both never been there and he wanted to visit the Aquaria KLCC. We used hours to arrive 'cause we didn't know the way to KLCC. After having lunch at Madam's Kwan, we started to find the way to the Aquaria. Gosh, it is so far away and kind of difficult for us to find. But we found it at last haha! Dearie was quite excited as it was the first time we visit the place. There was quite a lot of creatures, some are kind of gross to me and making me goosebumps as I'm kind of afraid of those furry creatures haha. We were lucky, 'cause we managed to watch a Piranha feeding show, the show was pretty awesome, it took only 1 minute for those Piranhas to finish their food. According to the information, the Piranhas start to get hungry when the temperature of the surrounding increase as it come to the afternoon. Imagine you are watching the process with your own eyes just in front of you, excited! There is a long alley for us to go in, as if we were under the water with those sea creatures, it was great and I love the place! Some of the creatures are really big in size beyond my own imagination such as, turtles, stingrays, sharks and some kind of fishes. WOW! It was so great to visit the Aquaria KLCC :)

Huge turtle :)

♥ The couple ♥

 Happy Monthsary! 

With loves...

Never expect too much

I guess August is probably not my month. It's going badly, but still, it haven't until the worst...yet. Something happened to be some small matters, but those small matters added up could become a big matter. I know I shouldn't bother about it, but it just keep bothering my mood and mind. Well well well, I shouldn't have expect too much. Hope will get the solutions really soon. I should remain the happiness before somber strikes me hardly, again. 

有时候不得不否认人生是不公平的，

如果说哭泣是女人的专利；

那男人的专利是什么？

女人可以哭泣来抒发情感；

那男人又如何抒发呢？

坚强的外表下，

谁又知道其实他可能受了委屈？

很多事我们不知道，

我们只管哭泣，埋怨，委屈。

他们累了，

只管坚持，坚强，努力。

该想想，我们能做的是什么。

我很累你的很累。

*好景不长在

This is bad

My handphone spoilt, which means I have to spend money, whether to take it to repair or change a new phone. I thought August will be a smooth one? Awww! It will be a huge amount for me, I think more or less have to spend hundreds. Duh duh duh! 

Conversation between me and dad-

Dad: 电话坏了啊？

Me: 就要坏了。

Dad: 买Iphone咯。

Me: 哇~你买给我啊？

Dad: 你就想咯。

Me: 我当然想啦。

Conclusion?

I still have to settle this by myself.

):

BAD start for August.

*Cries

F for~

I'm getting really FAT! Oh no. It's time for me to has some self-control. My tummy is really big, gosh! I want to have a model-like body figure, hell yes I know I can't. ): Anyway, I'm starting to keep fit and on diet already, only if I'm not having Mcd for my dinner. Duh, I just miss Mcd, can't blame. I must slim down before I get into degree on 22nd of August, or else my college mates are going to tease me ahaha. It's coming really soon. I'll be sure spending a lot in degree course, this is what I worry the most. Can't do anything without money. :/ Must work really hard though.

2023

It's August already! Time really flies. Soon I will not have my honeymoon anymore, I'm kinda freak out. Well, I still have to face it with courage no matter what because the earth will not stop spinning just because of me. GO GO GO!

Hopefully everything goes well in August! No more tears and fears! I don't wish for a 100% perfect day, I just hope everything will goes smoothly when the day comes. No more hurts like last time. No more. Please. Just give me a day break. I just wanna pass it happily without pains. Okay, be positive :D Will take it easy~

August is going to be a rock one right?

:)

I don't need perfection, I just need happiness.