有太多不能一起去的地方
有太多时间不能在一起
有太多承诺没能实现
有太多矛盾发生
有太多不如意
有太多泪水
有太多累
你快乐 所以我快乐
但是你不快乐
因为我不快乐
我给不了快乐
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
It happened again
I'm here for reasons. EMO, extremely happy or bored. This is me, a terrible girl. Yes, I'm truly terrible. I break my promise again, I'm still having this attitude, this terrible terribly attitude. Can't help anymore. Evil thinking is all around my mind, I can't stop hurting others, this is why it hurts myself too. Ahhh! I'm just torturing myself now. What happen to me? I'm just so not myself currently, or maybe during this week. I'm truly crazy and insane right now, I know that you guys can't even understand what the shits I'm talking about, sorry. I want to tell whoever here viewing my blog that I'm sorry. No matter what I've done to you, SORRY. Sorry my beloved; Sorry my friends; Sorry my haters; Sorry my enemy. I'm losing control currently. Maybe I didn't get enough rest these days, I stay up late everyday, I sleep on the bus everyday, my mind is empty, my mood swings and the worst is, I'm having narrow evil thoughts. I should not blame anyone, I should blame myself for being like this, I'm so hatred, I know. I'm ain't happy. x(
Sorry for once more being this rude,
You don't know how hatred you are when doing this to others, to me. Do you think you are humorous? But I don't think so! Is this your manners that you've learn for 18 years? I don't care whether you're joking or whatever shits, just keep your mouth shut and your bloody stupid attitude away from me. If you still claim that you're just making fun or jokes, I tell you now, I'm hell hating this. This is the second time you doing this, I remained silent for the very first time, and now you doing this again and this is your way asking me for approval? you're done with it. Do whatever you want or you like, up to you, I don't even care anymore. I don't need you to remind me that I'm small gas or whatever, in fact, you're just reminding me that you are the same too. Do you still remember what had you done before claiming that what kind of person am I? Come on, act like a 19! You should be a MAN now. I won't stop you from calling me aunty, but please at least respect me. YOU OLD MAN.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
My first valentine ♥
14/2/2011 ♥
Early seeing HIM was my first surprise as I never thought of we could met that early. It had been almost 2 weeks plus we didn't meet up, if you're in couple, imagine how much I've missed HIM. It was an awesome night, and yeah, a fantastic Valentine for us. Seeing a huge box of Valentine's gift was my second surprise. How great to have a silly boyfriend like HIM, hahaha. He melts my heart, all the time. Luckily, I still managed to give him surprises I guess, hope he likes the presents. However, the surprises were yet to come, the third surprise was the bills of our dinner at Uptown, Bandar Utama. You wouldn't want to know how much it cost, haha. And here comes the last surprise! ♥ Never expecting he would do something like this, awww I was so darn sweet! I can tell that, I don't really need any presents, the most precious thing is YOUR ♥ state of mind and love to me. Our 1 year anniversary is coming sooooo soon :D Time flies huh~
I LOVE YOU my man ♥
Friday, February 18, 2011
Face the reality
When you get closed to someone, you're ready to be hurt, you're ready to be betrayed. Imagine you've trusted someone so much. It would just happen to you once you get into a relationship with anyone around you. This is why sometimes I would rather to be all alone. I can see the colours of the society, people around you could be so friendly to you and turned into another person right after a second. They could be so realistic and hypocritical when involving some benefits. I am just the amongst of the ordinary ones, I don't even know how to do the tricks in this kind of environment and I don't even like to get anyone's attentions. Human instincts make me confuse and make me fears, I couldn't stop doubting on their sincerity. I'm always in dilemma about, why people could be so selfish yet I still have to be generous? Why people could be so rude yet I still have to be patient? These are what make me doubt on myself too, who am I, where is my real soul? Should I have to be like that to protect myself? Why? Why people keep changing themselves including me? Trust me, I wish I would never change myself from the beginning, but I've no choices. This is the real world, humans are selfish who are only care about themselves. The reality is so terrifying.
I could just collapse if there's no one here to support me.
Friday, February 11, 2011
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