YOU must read this!

Yes, I meant YOU, birthday girl!

26/12/1992 born a 38 girl in the world who call Lim Jia Hui ♥

We'd known each other for almost 6 years already!

Over the six years I know about you is that you're a non-stop insane girl

We'd been through a misunderstand that we never mention again until now

Do you remember that? :)

I bet we both don't wish to mention about the unhappiness

What I wan to say is that I know myself deeply

No one in my friend list is exempted having problems with me (laughs)

But we did gone through this and put down everything

which makes our friendships get even stronger

I know you

You won't get mess with friends and you're simple yet sincere

Thanks to accept me as your good friend

You're my good friend too sweetie!

I miss you! ♥

I miss our moments during form 5

Insane together

38 together

Ignored the teachers together

Played together

Laughed together

Talked craps together

Copied others homework together

And much more!

I couldn't get a celebration and a birthday present for you this year

But I gave you my bless and wishes ♥

Wishing you all the best and a brightest future :)

I'm so glad that you'd finally gone through your hard times about the past

I know you can do it one day

Now it's the time :D

It's so great to see you found your happiness and your smiley faces

Your smile is so sweet ♥

So don't hide it with tears for the one who don't deserve it

I bet your Mr.right will make you happy always

I don't know him but I can feel that you're happy and comfort with him

Hold him and your happiness tight ya :)

Happy birthday my dearest Hui Hui! ♥

Hope that you get to see this post on your birthday

I'm always by your side even though we get less to meet each other already

But don't worry because you're my good friend always

We don't need words or meeting each other often as long as we have our hearts for our friendships

Agree? :D

Happy sweet sweet sweetest 18th birthday ya!

Lum anot? XD

We're cute!

heh!

Smile!

♥ ♥

p/s: I was jealous that soon yip posted you such a touch comment, why I don't have on my birthday Mr.Chai Soon Yip? Next year kay? :D

My 2010 Christmas

Flashed back to 2009 Christmas, I had my first Christmas celebration ever I guess? Last year, I celebrated Christmas with a gang of friends - Aaron, Alvin, Hui, Lun, Ken and so on~ We went to church and then Chandran for the next round and we stayed out late until 2a.m. Yes, this was my first time, feels great :D

This year, I meet non of them during Christmas :( Because, everyone knows as time goes by something between you and me might change, we can't expect we can be together all the time, as long as we will always remind each other in our minds and that's enough. Like now, you all reminded me of last year Christmas that we'd spent all night together :) Indeed, I miss that moment very much now ;)

Back to topic haha, how was my Christmas this year? I can say that it was pretty plain. Sorry that I kept rejecting Chee Hoe's offers to go out. I wasn't in my mood all day long, but trust me that I'd tried very hard not to make myself get into even worse situation. It doesn't matter right now, because I got a extraordinary and delightful full stop for the end of my Christmas. I and Him had spent together until the last minute of Christmas. What a surprise he gave, and what a regret I get. Sorry and thank you for everything my beloved. I love the Christmas present very much ♥ but I love you more than that ♥

♥

Hohoho~~ Christmas is around the corner, I'm so excited! A ♥ Christmas present is prepared, hope that he will like it. I'm waiting a present from him, my naughty one, I bet he bought one for me even though he said he didn't, but if he really don't, he will taste my fist! Roar~~ Can't wait can't wait! Please let us hang out smoothly this time. Pray lxl

I want to meet HIM ♥

I want to wish HIM Merry Christmas ♥

I want to celebrate Christmas with HIM ♥

I want a Christmas present from HIM ♥

I want to give HIM a Christmas present ♥

I want to hug HIM ♥

My love diary is in process ♥

回魂了

我又发癫了.看看我前两个post，又再旧病复发，想一些有的没的，搞什么emo嘛！最近假期太无聊了吧，所以光想这些没营养的东东.其实我早已放下了，过去的让它过去，我管你是ABCDK还是Y！是我自己38重提往事，18岁了还那么神经质，真可悲! 还让朋友们吓着了,paisei哦. 所以现在我回来了 =D 我就是这样,上一秒可以伤心得要死,下一秒可以开心得要死. 真的很38! 我没事! 只是太无聊了! 我就是那么的感情用事, 每次讲到自己好像没有朋友, 我真的有问题, 一通电话朋友就有了还埋怨酱多,对不起呀朋友们. 所谓天涯何处无芳草! 你又算什么, 你有的我也有, 我愁什么? 愁来愁去还是愁, 酱愁有什么用. 都是我死38啦! 不会再无聊想些有的没的了, 有些东西不是我的就不会是我的, 假期就快过去了,我也没有多余时间再想这些. 请大家原谅我得无聊~ x)

My thoughts

I cried too much; I blamed too much; I waited too much because I cared too much. But now, I stop crying, blaming and waiting too much. Because I know, I care too much will hurt too much. I understand, people who have similar thoughts and characters are hard to work out. I guess we are too similar within our thoughts and characters, that's why we couldn't ever make it. Yes, I got my explanations I guess, but something is different, that is the time. If I got it earlier I would still holding my courages to approach you again. You used to give me a hope and then simply crashed it at a time. I don't like putting problems aside to just let them heal themselves, this is so not me, not my style. Don't find excuses anymore, once you could still using the same way to break my heart again and again and again, you're just pushing me to the edge to end everything. I didn't willing to end it until now because I want to give us a chance again and again, I'm holding a hope every single day to hope a reply from you, but your thoughts for you are everything, I couldn't catch your mind no matter how hard I'd tried. It's tiring. I won't fight nor struggle anymore, because I control the present right? I still need to move forward. Let the time heals our wounds. :)

My last advices,

No one would wait for you forever if you don't hold them tight.

No one could endure of your everything forever if you don't find a new way for yourself.

Save and solve the problems before it's all too late.

Want us to leave you should not show up;

Want to forget I should not mention.

Don't want to hurt us you should not mention;

Don't want to get hurt I should not approached.

Want to let me know you should not used this way;

Want to know it I should not force to know.

Want to mention you should change your attitude;

Want to know I should know how to let go.

没有谁不可以没有谁..

你不伟大~

忘记不需要努力 :)

Losing you is not my loss, losing me is your biggest mistake.

等待是我的朋友

时间过得很快,可是就算过了那么久回忆依旧在,曾经发生过的事历历在目,我知道它不可能消失,我只好等待,等待奇迹出现的那一天.踏出第一步很难,结束对我来说更难.曾经我以为出现了奇迹,以为终于得到了我等待好久的答案,我等了将近半年,结果又不知觉地结束了,连我自己也不知道发生什么事.没想到的是,结束的这结果是一样的,没有任何答复.又是一个等待.踏出第一步时真的很难很挣扎,不顾任何反对,相信也以为这次大家都成熟了可以再次有个美好地开始,以后会更珍惜对方,最后我分不清谁对谁错,就在我每一年最特别的日子让我等待和失望,就连一个简单的解释当作一份诚意的礼物都没有,这是对我何其残忍的事实.曾经那么高兴地到处宣扬,结束后却无言以对,原来真的没有一辈子这回事.有时候的人事物就是那么地残忍,那么地让人心碎,下一刻会发生什么事真的无法预知.我以为等待后会有我要的结果,当我心碎时想找一个让我倾诉的对象都没有时,我觉得自己真得很悲哀,我连一个信任的人都没有了.现在我依然和等待纠缠不清,等待离不开我,它没有想离开的念头,我却很想和它绝交,如果这是我的宿命,我认了,但请不要再给我一个这么悲哀的结果.我会继续等待,等待奇迹的来临.我想和奇迹交朋友,我想对奇迹笑,不想对等待哭.

睡到一半才觉醒疗伤先要哭一下.

哭后依然得站起来面对现实.

希望能等待到两个我最想要的答案 :)

朋友们,看了后别惊讶,我知道平时嬉皮笑脸的我没让你们看出我有这么多心事,我不喜欢说那么多,我希望你们能定时地关心下我,我不会做主动,请你们包容这样的我. :)

My precious

Santa Claus is coming to town~~ It's December! Ever since I think about Christmas I will think about presents, snow and Christmas tree. Well, I don't really celebrate Christmas actually but I love it, just that I don't have the chance to celebrate it. However, last year I celebrated a memorable Christmas Eve with my fellow friends. I hope this year will not be a normal one, but I will try to think less. Heh..Now, talk about presents on Christmas, I love presents a lot, or I should say 'Who on the earth don't like presents?" I seldom get presents on Christmas, but on my birthdays, definitely YES!I want to share my precious presents with you all in this post. Why? Simply laaa...I now having semester break very free ma..haha..

A handmade card by XXX (doesn't important right now)

nice right? My favourite colour ^^

Can you see the RM1, the code of it is my birthday date

Thanks to Lun and Bing (sounds weird)

they made the stars for me, my favourite colour ^^

Now Lun won't do that to me anymore, 'coz he will only do these for his poppop

Thanks Susan, Hui, Kee Tong and Yuki

I won't forget the surprise you all gave me, until now, I feel so warm when thinking of it.

Mr.B accompany me all the time

I will cherish Mr.B always ^^

Milk Teddy purse haha

Thanks my brother and Alvin

Milk Teddy purse very kam! ^^

Lun made this for me again on my 16th birthday.

With my favourite colour ^^

Although now it's a bit dirty, but I'll keep it forever.

This present very ba bai one.

The first and the last present from Bad Dog 'coz until now he still owing me 3 presents, I don't think I will ever get it from him. Haiz

A little piano from Sew Fong, so cute, I love it <3

A present from JiaHau, don't know what to call this haha, but it's so special!

Thanks, but I couldn't manage to keep the memory card :(

So, I will keep this well ya.

Aww, I love this I love this! Purple rabbit with roses.

I wander how Farid knows my favourite colour :D

I know I look horrible in this picture, was in my college and had a surprise from my coursemates!

A huge Secret Recipe cake (yum yum!)

The rabbit is so cute until I wanted to kill it :p


And now, let's Pooh time! :D

A book from Cally, my dearest friend.

The wishes inside it always sweeten my heart once I saw.

A Pooh photo album from my lovely mum, I'll put all the memorable photos inside it.

My little Pooh buddies! Thanks Cally, Soon Yip and XX giving me this.

Love all of it!

Well, these are not my birthday presents, they're Valentine's presents!

Owh, Poohs again from Ho Eng and Wen Kang.

So cute!!!

Now, this is the funny one. I got two same Pooh lamps haha.

I got the bigger one from my 16th birthday and the smaller one on my 17th birthday :D

Thanks Ken & ... for the bigger one and thanks Ho Eng for the smaller one.

Let's see my cutie baby Pooh family Picture! :)

My babies~~♥

Lastly, these are my most precious one. ♥

(Blur) A necklace from my beloved, not on my birthday, it's on 8/3/2010

A memorable day for us ♥

This is me :D Thanks my darling~~

Love you 99! ♥

Muacks muacks!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Finally finished sharing my presents with you all...still got a lot of precious presents la, some might not posted here.

:D

再一次

再一次听到你的消息

有点惊讶

有点熟悉

惊讶是因为听到你的消息

熟悉是因为你还是以前那个你

再一次让我失望

因为你还是以前那个自私的你

没有改变

感情不是儿戏

或许我的感情生活不比你丰富

但是我明白

感情不是你要就要

不想要就随便离开的

把别人当玩偶很好吗

要的时候就非得到手不可

不要的时候就一声不响地离开

再一次让你操控着

　我的思绪

还好

我现在已经胜任有余

不再被你摆布了

但是

我很庆幸的是

我们已经是曾经

不然现在的我是难过的

因为在你心里

我找不到我的位置

^^

我伤你并不比你伤我来得多

Movies recommended!

Unstoppable very nice!

Rapunzel very nice!

Bruce Lee, my brother nice!

Must watch :)

Harry Potter......ehem...

Sohli Potter mad, 汉奸业

:D

Friday made my day

Project 3 is my last project for semester 2, this is a group project to produce a human sanctuary, Monday is the deadline, but no worries, we'd done the final outcome. Heee~ Good work to my groupmates. Now we just left our sketch book to get it done. Hopefully everything go smooth. Today I reached hostel at 10.30a.m, then we finished our project at 10.30p.m. 12 hours! woo. Reached home around 11p.m and I ate nothing. But my brother bought me my dinner at 12.30a.m, sounds.....ehem right? Whatever, that's why I'm still awake now, damn tired la actually. haha, but feel relieve. ^^

Okay, let's talk about Friday. As I mentioned on the previous post about I'm going to have my project 2 feedback on Friday. Oh yea, let's talk about this.

We were told that we could only get the feedback after 2p.m, everyone was worry about their results and couldn't wait to know it. Seems like a lot of peoples were not having a good results as they wished for. So I queued from 2 to 4p.m, almost 2 hours only I got my feedback. I was getting nervous and nervous, I was confident in the beginning but then I was so afraid to hear my results. Oh finally it's my turn! The lecturer gave me compliments, and again, she said my drawing is very nice, another big encouragement for me, hahaha, so happy you know. She said my final outcome had a lot improvements compare to the test out one. And then, she said ' So, you deserve an A' I was like totally stress-free after hearing it, felt so relieve and I finally get an A. Wooohooo! I get a good results after I'd put so much efforts. A smiley face hung on my face :)

p/s: I was shaking over the feedback session. x.x

Thanks God you see my efforts!

oh yea, Project 2 is about Posters Designs, we have to produce 4 posters in a series.

Again,

I'm so proud.

:)

Long time no see

Time pass too fast, it's November already. I suppose having my semester break next week onwards, but I guess I have to postpone for 3 more weeks, so until now I still not sure whether when is my semester break. *sweat*

Just got my feedback for my project 1 yesterday, my grade -- C-

The grade just reminded me of my Biology, Physics and Chemistry results past two years. The marks is so low. Well, I'd knew what I'll get, I knew my final outcome was sucks, what I can do is regret what I'd done. Seriously, I really don't like this project--character design. That's why I didn't put much effort on it, so I deserve this result. You know how's the feeling when you get a low grade, so I guess I don't need to share mine.

'Learn from what you'd failed,

gain from what you'd failed,

make yourself to do better.'

This is what I could tell myself. I know I can do it. The happy thing was that the lecturer did complimented me for my writing and drawings on my sketch book for project 1. I was quite surprised as I always thought that my drawing is sucks. So yea, this is an encouragement for me to do better as they really noticed my improvement. No picture to show b'coz I'm lazy to upload it, haha. Friday is going to have my feedback for project 2, pray for it b'coz this time I really put a lot of effort on it, I don't want to get a C again.

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There are too many peoples appear in our life, how many of the relationships between you and them are long lasting? Peoples came and left. Once they get into your life, you couldn't even ensure that they will stay here with you forever. They could just turn around and go away one day. No matter how hard you pay or try to keep them beside, you couldn't stop them from leaving you when the time has come and the fate between both of you has come to an end. You can cry, upset and disappointed, but nothing is going to change, there's no way turning back. Life is full of sadness sometime as you think, but if you make it different, you can make it happy as it is your life, you own your life, you can choose to live in whatever way you want. So don't lead yourself to the sadness path, make it happiness. How? Just a simple word "APPRECIATE". Appreciate what you own, appreciate the peoples around you, appreciate everything in your life.

And I, I appreciate every moment I spend with you, my beloved.

I couldn't ensure that we can last forever, but if I could, I would like to be your forever. ♥

I ♥ you

I appreciated you, I thought you were, but it turned out not as what I thought, you gave up, so do I. There's nothing left between us anymore when I found out you broke the promise, you can blame me for my attitude, but please notice that you're the one who gave up first. Maybe you thought this might be better for us, but this is just what you think, not me. You just want yourself to live better, not me.

When you let go something, you lose someone.

When you lose someone, you let go something.

Respect others when you want them to respect you in repay.

Don't ever expect me to respect you when you're not respecting me.

Please mind your jokes sometime, you thought it is fun, but others are not.

Please notice that you will be mad too when someone making jokes with you.

Don't do when you don't want others to do the same thing to you.

If you want to be mature please think before you say.

Someone mature knows what should say and what should not.

雪溧

:)

你让我的心一痛再痛

是你变了

A dream, a direction

I couldn't step forward without a dream and a direction. I'm so lost somehow, which is the best and suitable? No one can help me though. No one can understand my feelings. I don't have a dream or a single future planning right now at the age of 18. I need a guide to help me to approach my directions and obstacles. Really lifeless, I want to contribute more and more.

It had been long time I didn't really care for my friends, I hook up with many friends but I realized that I never put a single cares on them, I felt that I'm different compare to the past, it might be a good or a bad. I don't really care for something easily anymore, maybe this is why I've found out how much did I neglected my friends. I'm not that stubborn anymore, when I think of her, I discovered that she's no longer there anymore, as my nightmare. I really miss my friends lately, I miss the time we chattered and laughed a lot together.

Sorry my fellow friends.

I really encountered too much obstacles and stress lately, I don't even know how to express it. I assumed that I didn't have the time to care someone else. My bad. :(

Waterfall

我一直以为

只要努力和付出

就可以得到回报和成果

我一直是这样想的

虽然我懒惰

可是我很努力

这次却不一样了

如果付出和努力了这么多

却得不到应有的回报

你会有什么感受?

我会堕落

我会崩溃

然后我会再坚强的站起来

继续前进

我不会认输

我一直以来不都是这样吗

Form 2那年

我fail了Sejarah

我后悔当时的行为

我检讨

我决定努力

最后我及格了

Form 3那年

Geography很差

我又Fail了

再一次

我崩溃了

没有人知道

我躲在厕所流泪

我答应自己做得更好

PMR我拿到A

都是靠我自己的努力

我爱玩并不代表我不会努力

Form 4那年

有人和我比较总平均

我输了

我再努力

结果我成功了

继续保留在第一班

Form 5那年

Moral竟然Fail掉

晴天霹雳

我再次崩溃

我在房里偷偷哭泣

可是我坚强起来

努力奋斗

SPM也拿到A-

即使被他人放弃和遗忘

我堕落了

崩溃了

　我每一晚都难以入睡

噩梦纠缠

我不让别人知道我流泪

最后我坚强的站起来

我决定遗忘那些不快乐

找回自己

做会自己

不再为那些不珍惜我的人流泪

现在

我依然是这个我

面对瓶颈

堕落了就会再站起来

再更加努力

不懂是谁变了

是你没有耐性了

还是我过分了

我不想再面对你

我觉得窒息

在这样下去对我们有什么好处

面对这种情况

我异常的平静

我不懂为什么

ALIVE

Back to my mood to blog b'coz I'd finally done my project 2! Hooray~~

Big *Claps* for me. =p

WHY?

BECAUSE

In this whole week

I stayed at college from 8.30a.m to 5.30p.m to do my project. I'd been feeling dizziness for this whole week, I didn't get this serious for long time and now, I was surprise to myself. =p

Just yesterday, I must get my 4 final posters done because today I'm going The Legend hotel to have Hi-Tea with my family.

23/10/10

I woke up at 10a.m, watched tv until 11 something and practice piano.

I started to do my work at 1 something. Guess what? I did my work non-stop from 1 something to 12.30a.m. I just ate a bread for my day. Geng laaa. When I'm working, I don't have the mood to eat or talk or go somewhere else, that's why I didn't eat nor talk to anyone and didn't meet my friends for long time, I guess.

Now, I'm ALIVE! =)

BUT, there will be a new project waiting for me tomorrow. x)

Gambateh!

I hate myself for being so forgetful.

Everyday, for sure I will be forgot about at least one thing.

Monday, I can't remember right now. (SEE)

Tuesday, I forgot to bring my palet back home.

Wednesday, I forgot to buy mounting board.

Thursday, I forgot to bring back Louie's sponge and forgot where I'd put my pendrive, the pendrive is so meaningful to me, I was going to cry that time. Luckily I found it back. =)

Friday, I forgot to bring my silk screen back home.

Saturday, I forgot where I put my glue.

Sunday, I still wondering what I will forget next.

My glue gone :(

My mood in this week was really awful, but I'm okay right now. =)

IMY

Dead

I'm so dead. My task is still hanging, I did nothing until now, lecturer gave me the weekends to get the task done, see what I'd done now? NOTHING. Can't blame. Tomorrow will be a spinning day. B'coz I'll get dizzy when I didn't get enough sleep. Pray laaaa. SPIN SPIN SPIN.

X.X

So dead Ong Suet Li

I need you now,

I miss you now,

I don't love you now,

I love you always.

:)

You're the sweet that can sweeten my day.

Discovered

I'm pretty tired right now, I can just fall into deep sleep once I get my butt on my bed. As you can see, I'm here with my assignments aside. Can't help with myself. I'm gonna die for tomorrow class. Deadline is COMING! Horrible. I was going to start my assignments just now, but I discovered something. Sometimes, I really hate my curiosity. Hmmph. Still not getting over it? Hmmmmmm, I don't dare to face the answer. I just whispered to myself, 'BYE' 'GO AWAY' 'SHOOOO' 'DON'T GET NEAR' 'LEAVE ME ALONE' nightmares. All the way I tell myself 'be cool, Suet Li, you can do it and you'll make it'. Yes, I hope I will. :)

You know, my nightmares are all about you.

You are my best medicine whenever I'm stress, I want to be with you all the time to forget all my worries and the pains. It's so relax to be with you, although I dropped something from my eyes today in front of you. Thanks for being by my side always.

I love you, my sweetheart.

Burns up

I'm so not in my mood right now. Frustrated and totally freaked out. I can't do anything well, until now, I didn't even do anything for my assignments, I can think of nothing and I don't know what to do with those assignments. I wish to rest but my mind is stuck, I can't relieve myself without having my assignments done. I don't want to talk and I don't need to chat right now.

:(

:) ):

I'd my first individual presentation on Thursday, as you can imagine, it sucks. I was so reckless the day before, burn midnight oil for the slides and I was not in my mood. I almost forget to wear formal to college. On the next day after I reached KBU only I realized I forgot to bring my pendrive, stupid right? How careless I was. This is not the first time. Then, I have to burden my brother again, to bring it to me. However, it's better than I predicted. Just take it as an experience and do well next time. :) I learn how to cheer myself lately, at least I did it, not that good but I will improve. We didn't born to know everything.

What else I can say when you do this again and again

I will just shut up when you hurt me

I want you to realize how much your words hurt

I won't fight back or mention anything now

I didn't born to be perfect

That's it.

面对你，我已经没有任何感觉了

因为，我不再对你有任何期望

:S

Assignments are like mountains.

I wanna jump!

Jump over it as soon as possible.

4 poster designs

Caricature drawing

10 sketches

Presentation

Critical writing

ADUI~~

I don't have time to exercise

ended up

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I'm still a fatty!

:S

I'm here.

Back to blog finally, but still don't have anything to write. XD

Doing the same thing everyday, go college and yada yada....kinda boring, don't have anything special.

Oh yea, went to Lun's birthday party today, finally can BBQ =) Nice, I met many friends.

Ah Lun a, Happy noob birthday oh~~~ All the best to you yea...

So, what should I write now?

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Okay, I know what to write. I must write here! Or else if I say will be useless, nobody will trust me.

BOO XU ZANG AND SOME OTHERS!!! PLEASE LOOK HERE!!!

I never do such a thing with my boy boy, never okay, please stop teasing me about that, or else I really will punch you guys, memang kanasai, I told you, I DIDN'T EVEN SEEN BEFORE. ==

Well, I'm not angry, just really speechless, I didn't wanna write here as you said if I got anything should tell face to face, but, I don't think you guys will trust even though I say. So, BOO XU XANG you NOOBIE!!!! BAD DOG!!!! YOU STILL OWE ME "3"!

Tones of homeworks! I'm gonna freak out... God bless me. I'm afraid of presentation. Oh gosh. =(

A wrong decision

Today, I skipped my class again. I got plenty of reasons to skip the class yet now I knew I was wrong. I shouldn't do this, I'm so wrong. Firstly, nobody is bringing me to college, brother is going out early in the morning, second brother for sure will nag me for waking him up early in the morning, as what I said before, I don't like to burden anyone. I knew this is just an excuse, I could walk to train station though, but I was lazy to walk there. And, my classmate called me last night, she didn't want to attend today so she asked me to follow her. I don't know why she act like this, as a friend, how can she ask me to skip the class together just to accompany her. I felt that she is so selfish in this case, then, I get influenced. I told my mum I don't want to go. This is an excuse too, I should not blame anyone, I am still the one who decide it in the end, I don't have strong determination to refuse the things which I know it is wrong. I'm so guilty now, I shouldn't had do this. I won't do this again I promise!

如果

如果你不爱我了

你还能爱谁

如果你不想我了

你还能想谁

如果你不要我了

你还能要谁

如果这些都成为别人的专利了

那我算什么了

如果我们的回忆被你遗忘了

如果我们的承诺让别人实现了

如果我们的感情淡化了

如果我们一起不幸福了

你是不是会比我过得更好

把我遗忘得更快

如果

你恨我了

你厌倦我了

你讨厌我了

你不爱我了

你不想我了

你不要我了

我还剩下谁

是不是我不好

我不知道

我没有答案

但

我给了你我最好的

我尽力了

我付出了

你没看到吗

Holidays

Holidays holidays, I need a lot of holidays. I don't want to do the stupid ugly project. I don't like ugly thingy, it's so hard to accomplish. I need holidays to do exercise, I want to jog and play badminton; I want to go somewhere special; I want to practice piano; I want to meet all my friends that I miss; I want to drive; I want to travel; I want to sing out loud; I want to do something I never do before. I want I want I WANT!! The only thing I don't want is the project.

Went Cameron for three days and I did nothing, just enjoyed the cold weather there and played a lot with the two naughty kids. Not that boring but I want to go with more people. Looking forward on the another trip to Port Dickson. Heh! Will have much fun there! =p I like to play with water, I want to visit the beach!

执著

有人说我很执著

对每件事都很执著

我知道我执著的严重性

我很想改掉这个坏习惯

我努力着不再让自己那么执著

别人何尝不也像我一样执著呢

他

明知道不可能

明知道没结果

也依然执著着

继续对她好

喜欢她

到头来他得到的是什么

只有他知道

她

为爱情而执著

为了他

什么都愿意

什么都去做

到最后还是跑来想我哭诉

为的是什么

只有她知道

他

很爱她

哭着求她

等了她很久

以为可以开花结果

换回来的是什么

一大堆的泪水

和心碎

得到什么

他自己最清楚

他

曾经

对我执著

为了我难过

因为我

他很痛苦

心碎了

哭了

失去了笑容

我都知道

但是我视而不理

我不能再为他做些什么

我没有资格

他那么执著

又得到什么

他

为我执著

我难过他也难过

我开心他也开心

他明知道不可能

没结果

他依然执著

为了我

他难过

他心痛

他想放弃

我却不在乎

　到最后

　他得到什么

　

执著到底是好是坏

自己决定

Sunday

Went for haircut, I think it was the first time to let a guy to wash my hair, it was weird, just like my head was molesting by a guy, in the end I still have to pay him for molesting my head. ==

In the half way, I met a pokai (sorry to say this), but she's really pokai. 死八婆!!!!!I was out of control. Okay, sorry. =D

Yam cha again. Nothing special to say. Just one thing, 好野!!!!

Today, Yesterday

I awaken at 9a.m this morning but I didn't want to get myself up, I just love my bed so much, so I continued to sleep until 11.00a.m until I get a sms from JiaHau. Say thanks to JiaHau! But I'm online-ing instead of doing my so-called many works. Eaten a nice bread for my breakfast and drank a cup of Nescafe, and now, I'm feeling awful after drinking it, I'm dizzy. Whatever la, who cares. The weather is so nice to sleep. Heh. Nobody home now and I don't think I will have my lunch today, 'coz nobody will bought for me. Keep fit lor!

I'm writing nonsense.

Yesterday, my brother brought me to 1u for a movie, finally he brought for movie 'coz he used to FFK me. Hmmmph. We watched the movie entitled 'Going To Distance'. At first, I thought it would be a romantic love story. Ahem, but this is a rude love story, everybody is non-stop saying F**K in this movie, I was so stunned. Not only this, the couples in this movie keep having sex. I was stunned again. What the hell now, I was watching it with my brother, it was so awkward! Gosh. But this movie is really funny la, I laughed my ass out. But guys, don't date the girl you like to this movie and don't ever bring your siblings along, it would be so damn awkward!

I think I won't date with my brother anymore, he walked damn fast and I was like chasing him at the back like a pervert. == Duh. Damn my brother and thanks for treating me the MOVIE.

#11.Love your family because they are the closest one in your life and you won't get another one that would ever replace them.

Sorry!

I discovered I FFK too much currently, I'm really sorry about that.

I FFK my friends, Ms. Guna and Mr. Chen.

Hope you all won't get mad, must date me again. =p

B'coz, I'm lonely. Heh. I need you guys. =D

SOHLI!

绵绵细雨

倾盆大雨

雨过天晴

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Fatty Li

Many people said that I am getting fatter compare to the previous time.

Yea, I know I should keep fit and do some exercise now! But you know what, there're so many lazy worms inside my body.

Don't worry, I will still keep fit, although I ate twice lunch today ><

Don't start to laugh at me I tell you, I will keep fit!

Even my boyfriend also keep asking me to keep fit.

Oh my gosh, is it that serious?

偶真系接受吾到咯！

You will see my slim body again!

Just wait and see.

><

Cries.

You and me

I didn't get you out of my mind even though I told myself of this for million times

I don't know whether you're really that important

B'coz no matter what you're still here

I needed your support so much when I was having hard times and in trouble

But sad to tell that you're not here every time

Even a comfort and a simply 'how are you'

I wanted to be by your side whenever you're down or upset and whatever it will be

I'm always here

But it seems that you never give a damn on me

like I'm invisible

like I'm nothing to you

like I'm just a dust

I don't know and never get to know what you're thinking

B'coz I didn't even get the chance to know more about you

more about your thoughts and mind

and

you tell non of it to me

I'm just tired of this kind of frustrating feelings you brought to me

I just wanted to give up

I don't want to hanging around like a puppy

I'm upset and depressed

I didn't even like to mention about you

You're just like a scar on my heart

It will never disappear

That is why I don't want to expose it to anyone

I want to hide it

and

I want to be happy

without you

just like you never get into my life for once

even in my dreams

I don't hate you

Just that I loved you too much

It also burdened me too much

You're making me hectic

I can't stand this pain

I'm not that strong

All I wanted is you to be by my side

I know it is too much for you

B'coz you never stop your footsteps for anyone

You're just like you

I am just the way I am

You can't just change for me and either am I

We're both selfish and stubborn

We have to end this

like we never met

I can't do anything to make it better

and

I don't have the courage to do this again

It will just making me even suffer

We're having our own point of view

We thought we are the only one who suffer from this

I don't know

I don't want to care anymore

Just

let it be like what it wants to be

B'coz I believe that

Time can heals everything

#10. Time heals everything.