Friday, May 28, 2010

我的自信源自于你们,
就算是小小的鼓励也会让我很感动,
就算是小小的支持也会让我很安慰,
就算是小小的赞美也会让我很开心,
能让我更自信的方式,就是那么简单,
真的有那么难吗?
还是我在你们心中已经变成一个不再需要尊严的人了?
我也需要被尊重,就像我也尊重你们一样。
我爱玩并不代表我不会认真,
我爱开玩笑并不代表我不能做大事,
我懒惰并不代表我没有努力过,
我失败了并不代表我不会再成功,
我不说并不代表我不难过,
我不反驳并不代表我好欺负,
我不会画画并不代表我永远也学不会,
不要瞧不起我,因为我跟任何人一样,都是有感觉的,我也会受伤害。
继续向我开玩笑,取笑我,如果你们真得那么想看我受伤害

Friday, May 14, 2010

I miss Lum Cally, Cheam Sheue Lin, Chong Yi Lin and Chin Yann Torng so much..
I want another great chat with you all...it's never enough for me.
I'll drive to find you guys one day, just wait.
Trust me, I will.
=)
Well, I'm silly enough. I never take the lesson even though I faced it for so many times already. I'm so silly being like this. I couldn't do it in the very end even though I always promised myself not to do this and that. I'm too weak to face the reality, I thought everything will be fine but I was wrong. I'm just the way too silly. Someone told me that I deserve to be cared and loved which I thought I will not ever deserve it long time ago. I promised myself this time, I won't care already and I will do it. I swear. I will be independent and I will be alone, it's not that I don't appreciate, I appreciated a lot, but what I got in the end? Nothing, what left in the end was just sadness and madness. I'm sickening of it. I'm so damn pissed off. This is the last time. Don't forget what you had done to me, you're not sorry, you don't deserve any forgiveness. Go ahead and continue your childish life as you wish to. You won't have the chance to mess me up again. I'm going to start my new life now. Go away...leave me far away, I'm so tired because of you. You are not the one in my life anymore, 'cause you lied, never keep your promises. I don't deserve hurt but cares.
I'm emo now, but I'll be fine very soon. So, dear readers, don't worry about me. I'm okay.
Thanks to my soulmate, gave me a lot of advices and opinions, waken me up from silliness and make me tough. Thanks for listening my problems and sadness. I'll listen to you.
There's someone still care for me so much.
I'm hurt...again. This is not the first time. I'm so fed up. Do whatever you like. I won't care anymore. I won't be childish. I wonder, do you really care? Pissed off