A wrong decision

Today, I skipped my class again. I got plenty of reasons to skip the class yet now I knew I was wrong. I shouldn't do this, I'm so wrong. Firstly, nobody is bringing me to college, brother is going out early in the morning, second brother for sure will nag me for waking him up early in the morning, as what I said before, I don't like to burden anyone. I knew this is just an excuse, I could walk to train station though, but I was lazy to walk there. And, my classmate called me last night, she didn't want to attend today so she asked me to follow her. I don't know why she act like this, as a friend, how can she ask me to skip the class together just to accompany her. I felt that she is so selfish in this case, then, I get influenced. I told my mum I don't want to go. This is an excuse too, I should not blame anyone, I am still the one who decide it in the end, I don't have strong determination to refuse the things which I know it is wrong. I'm so guilty now, I shouldn't had do this. I won't do this again I promise!

如果

如果你不爱我了

你还能爱谁

如果你不想我了

你还能想谁

如果你不要我了

你还能要谁

如果这些都成为别人的专利了

那我算什么了

如果我们的回忆被你遗忘了

如果我们的承诺让别人实现了

如果我们的感情淡化了

如果我们一起不幸福了

你是不是会比我过得更好

把我遗忘得更快

如果

你恨我了

你厌倦我了

你讨厌我了

你不爱我了

你不想我了

你不要我了

我还剩下谁

是不是我不好

我不知道

我没有答案

但

我给了你我最好的

我尽力了

我付出了

你没看到吗

Holidays

Holidays holidays, I need a lot of holidays. I don't want to do the stupid ugly project. I don't like ugly thingy, it's so hard to accomplish. I need holidays to do exercise, I want to jog and play badminton; I want to go somewhere special; I want to practice piano; I want to meet all my friends that I miss; I want to drive; I want to travel; I want to sing out loud; I want to do something I never do before. I want I want I WANT!! The only thing I don't want is the project.

Went Cameron for three days and I did nothing, just enjoyed the cold weather there and played a lot with the two naughty kids. Not that boring but I want to go with more people. Looking forward on the another trip to Port Dickson. Heh! Will have much fun there! =p I like to play with water, I want to visit the beach!

执著

有人说我很执著

对每件事都很执著

我知道我执著的严重性

我很想改掉这个坏习惯

我努力着不再让自己那么执著

别人何尝不也像我一样执著呢

他

明知道不可能

明知道没结果

也依然执著着

继续对她好

喜欢她

到头来他得到的是什么

只有他知道

她

为爱情而执著

为了他

什么都愿意

什么都去做

到最后还是跑来想我哭诉

为的是什么

只有她知道

他

很爱她

哭着求她

等了她很久

以为可以开花结果

换回来的是什么

一大堆的泪水

和心碎

得到什么

他自己最清楚

他

曾经

对我执著

为了我难过

因为我

他很痛苦

心碎了

哭了

失去了笑容

我都知道

但是我视而不理

我不能再为他做些什么

我没有资格

他那么执著

又得到什么

他

为我执著

我难过他也难过

我开心他也开心

他明知道不可能

没结果

他依然执著

为了我

他难过

他心痛

他想放弃

我却不在乎

　到最后

　他得到什么

　

执著到底是好是坏

自己决定

Sunday

Went for haircut, I think it was the first time to let a guy to wash my hair, it was weird, just like my head was molesting by a guy, in the end I still have to pay him for molesting my head. ==

In the half way, I met a pokai (sorry to say this), but she's really pokai. 死八婆!!!!!I was out of control. Okay, sorry. =D

Yam cha again. Nothing special to say. Just one thing, 好野!!!!

Today, Yesterday

I awaken at 9a.m this morning but I didn't want to get myself up, I just love my bed so much, so I continued to sleep until 11.00a.m until I get a sms from JiaHau. Say thanks to JiaHau! But I'm online-ing instead of doing my so-called many works. Eaten a nice bread for my breakfast and drank a cup of Nescafe, and now, I'm feeling awful after drinking it, I'm dizzy. Whatever la, who cares. The weather is so nice to sleep. Heh. Nobody home now and I don't think I will have my lunch today, 'coz nobody will bought for me. Keep fit lor!

I'm writing nonsense.

Yesterday, my brother brought me to 1u for a movie, finally he brought for movie 'coz he used to FFK me. Hmmmph. We watched the movie entitled 'Going To Distance'. At first, I thought it would be a romantic love story. Ahem, but this is a rude love story, everybody is non-stop saying F**K in this movie, I was so stunned. Not only this, the couples in this movie keep having sex. I was stunned again. What the hell now, I was watching it with my brother, it was so awkward! Gosh. But this movie is really funny la, I laughed my ass out. But guys, don't date the girl you like to this movie and don't ever bring your siblings along, it would be so damn awkward!

I think I won't date with my brother anymore, he walked damn fast and I was like chasing him at the back like a pervert. == Duh. Damn my brother and thanks for treating me the MOVIE.

#11.Love your family because they are the closest one in your life and you won't get another one that would ever replace them.

Sorry!

I discovered I FFK too much currently, I'm really sorry about that.

I FFK my friends, Ms. Guna and Mr. Chen.

Hope you all won't get mad, must date me again. =p

B'coz, I'm lonely. Heh. I need you guys. =D

SOHLI!

绵绵细雨

倾盆大雨

雨过天晴

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我希望♥

Fatty Li

Many people said that I am getting fatter compare to the previous time.

Yea, I know I should keep fit and do some exercise now! But you know what, there're so many lazy worms inside my body.

Don't worry, I will still keep fit, although I ate twice lunch today ><

Don't start to laugh at me I tell you, I will keep fit!

Even my boyfriend also keep asking me to keep fit.

Oh my gosh, is it that serious?

偶真系接受吾到咯！

You will see my slim body again!

Just wait and see.

><

Cries.

You and me

I didn't get you out of my mind even though I told myself of this for million times

I don't know whether you're really that important

B'coz no matter what you're still here

I needed your support so much when I was having hard times and in trouble

But sad to tell that you're not here every time

Even a comfort and a simply 'how are you'

I wanted to be by your side whenever you're down or upset and whatever it will be

I'm always here

But it seems that you never give a damn on me

like I'm invisible

like I'm nothing to you

like I'm just a dust

I don't know and never get to know what you're thinking

B'coz I didn't even get the chance to know more about you

more about your thoughts and mind

and

you tell non of it to me

I'm just tired of this kind of frustrating feelings you brought to me

I just wanted to give up

I don't want to hanging around like a puppy

I'm upset and depressed

I didn't even like to mention about you

You're just like a scar on my heart

It will never disappear

That is why I don't want to expose it to anyone

I want to hide it

and

I want to be happy

without you

just like you never get into my life for once

even in my dreams

I don't hate you

Just that I loved you too much

It also burdened me too much

You're making me hectic

I can't stand this pain

I'm not that strong

All I wanted is you to be by my side

I know it is too much for you

B'coz you never stop your footsteps for anyone

You're just like you

I am just the way I am

You can't just change for me and either am I

We're both selfish and stubborn

We have to end this

like we never met

I can't do anything to make it better

and

I don't have the courage to do this again

It will just making me even suffer

We're having our own point of view

We thought we are the only one who suffer from this

I don't know

I don't want to care anymore

Just

let it be like what it wants to be

B'coz I believe that

Time can heals everything

#10. Time heals everything.

I hate the word 'disappointed'.

Rahsia sudah bocor!

I'm suppose to do my assignment now but I've no idea on how to start it, feel boring and wanted to blog. I skipped my class today b'coz I didn't finish my work and I'm so lazy. Until now, I still haven't get things done, hoho, I'm horrible!

Well, look at my title today and wander, what's the rahsia? Actually it is not considered as a secret anymore since.........I don't know when. Whatever la, it is not a secret anymore from today onwards. Gosh, what am I writing about? Don't bother about me, I'm just sotblak! You guys will know it soon. @@

Aiya, lazy worm everywhere inside my body, really lazy, I don't know why I'm so lazy, help me please. By the way, I'm so high on facebook now. hahaha! Really sotblak.

I think I'm curing myself, is getting better and better now. YOU will get lost some time. =D

Lazy to quote today. Bye~ *continue with facebook*

I HATE FACEBOOK! =p

She's better

She told me about my problems, I think she is the first one to tell me these among my friends. She did it right, I'm so glad about that, this is what friends meant to be, share everything and change together. This is how we gonna keep a good friendship instead of hiding from each other and make things worse. I should learn about this and we should learn about this. This is great right?

Didn't meet my buddies for days already, aww, miss them...but there are projects and assignments everywhere, duh, making me frustrated. This is life la...we have to learn so many things until we end our life. So, I have to be strong to encounter all the obstacles. We'll get to meet on Raya kay? Wheeee

#9. Good people meant to be blessed.

Again and again

Cant deny that life really sucks sometime. I didn't show my temper to others nowadays b'coz I want to control myself. But just today, someone showed the temper on me, us. What is wrong with her? I don't understand, maybe sometimes I did some mistakes and said something that pissed you off, but I thought we're friends, how can you do something and feed back in such a rude way? I'm pretty sad when I knew that, you thought we don't treat you in a good way like what you did to us, you're so wrong, I treated you as my friend and I want to be friend with you and I'm always here for you whenever you're upset but you do this again to me. Did you just forget about that when I just did some mistakes? Wouldn't you scared it will spoil our friendships? Hope you're fine and we're fine. One last word, I won't ask if I don't care.

Having headache today b'coz the weather is so hot! @@

How long does it takes to forget someone? I experienced it before by using roughly 2 years. How long will it takes this time, to forget this special one in my life?

Life still goes on ya? So just chill. =)

#8. You have to learn how to respect others before you want them to respect you.

It's unfair

The one with a car is always the boss, we can't fight when we don't have a car, what we only can do is to agree with them and get used to it.

Why must I do something I don't like? I just don't want to be a burden and trouble anyone, why must force me to do that? Sigh.

There are so many things to get done, I really don't know how to manage my time, sometimes I'm really so depress when someone hurt me by those sarcastic words, I really hate that, please mind to care about others feelings!

#7. A friend will never end his/her friendship just because of some small mistake, friends forgive friends!!