A dream, a direction

I couldn't step forward without a dream and a direction. I'm so lost somehow, which is the best and suitable? No one can help me though. No one can understand my feelings. I don't have a dream or a single future planning right now at the age of 18. I need a guide to help me to approach my directions and obstacles. Really lifeless, I want to contribute more and more.

It had been long time I didn't really care for my friends, I hook up with many friends but I realized that I never put a single cares on them, I felt that I'm different compare to the past, it might be a good or a bad. I don't really care for something easily anymore, maybe this is why I've found out how much did I neglected my friends. I'm not that stubborn anymore, when I think of her, I discovered that she's no longer there anymore, as my nightmare. I really miss my friends lately, I miss the time we chattered and laughed a lot together.

Sorry my fellow friends.

I really encountered too much obstacles and stress lately, I don't even know how to express it. I assumed that I didn't have the time to care someone else. My bad. :(