It happened again

I'm here for reasons. EMO, extremely happy or bored. This is me, a terrible girl. Yes, I'm truly terrible. I break my promise again, I'm still having this attitude, this terrible terribly attitude. Can't help anymore. Evil thinking is all around my mind, I can't stop hurting others, this is why it hurts myself too. Ahhh! I'm just torturing myself now. What happen to me? I'm just so not myself currently, or maybe during this week. I'm truly crazy and insane right now, I know that you guys can't even understand what the shits I'm talking about, sorry. I want to tell whoever here viewing my blog that I'm sorry. No matter what I've done to you, SORRY. Sorry my beloved; Sorry my friends; Sorry my haters; Sorry my enemy. I'm losing control currently. Maybe I didn't get enough rest these days, I stay up late everyday, I sleep on the bus everyday, my mind is empty, my mood swings and the worst is, I'm having narrow evil thoughts. I should not blame anyone, I should blame myself for being like this, I'm so hatred, I know. I'm ain't happy. x(

Sorry for once more being this rude,

You don't know how hatred you are when doing this to others, to me. Do you think you are humorous? But I don't think so! Is this your manners that you've learn for 18 years? I don't care whether you're joking or whatever shits, just keep your mouth shut and your bloody stupid attitude away from me. If you still claim that you're just making fun or jokes, I tell you now, I'm hell hating this. This is the second time you doing this, I remained silent for the very first time, and now you doing this again and this is your way asking me for approval? you're done with it. Do whatever you want or you like, up to you, I don't even care anymore. I don't need you to remind me that I'm small gas or whatever, in fact, you're just reminding me that you are the same too. Do you still remember what had you done before claiming that what kind of person am I? Come on, act like a 19! You should be a MAN now. I won't stop you from calling me aunty, but please at least respect me. YOU OLD MAN.