I got it.

Until today, I finally know, I finally got it.
I won't mess up your life from now on.
I think I will not find you anymore.
It's not because I'm angry with you, I just think that I should not bother your life already.
You have to be happy, or actually you are happier than what I thought, maybe I thought I'm too important, but actually I'm not. I'm just the way too proud. That's why I'm hatred.
Okay, that's all I can do for you now. Doing nothing would be the best for you.
You are somehow so weird, your attitude or whatever, I won't figure out what are you thinking, I should say that you are so childish or mature?
Honestly, you make me mad on your attitude few times before. How could you do such things? And this recent case, I felt that you're really irresponsible. But after I thought, actually I was much more irresponsible than you compare to this such a small case. So, I chose to let go and put down. I owed you a lot which I know I couldn't repay you.
Or I might think too much now. Whatever, I won't find you already.
Friend.
If we could be friends. If you ever treated me as your friend. Nah, I know you did, more than friend.